Today I'm linking up to Lisa-Jo aka the gypsy mama, who chooses a topic every Friday and writes for five minutes.
Only five minutes
Ready. Set. Go......
Interesting, the topic "waking up" certainly can cover a wide array of things, but when I read these words, only a couple of things came to mind....a little heavy, but well, that is how I seem to roll these days.
Waking up certainly means to me to take in account of what matters in my everyday life. I sorta feel like that has happened over the last couple of weeks. I tend to live my life with my head in the sand and pretend things are all well with me, my family and my "friends". I think it is time for a wake up call so to speak.
I have spent so many timeless hours and energy on doing things and planning things and worrying over things that involve lots of people in my life. I try and be there, help when I can and look forward to planning special things for the people who mean a lot to me. Funny, when you pop up out of the sand once in a while, you sorta see that what was once appreciated, has sorta turned into expected and all of a sudden, at least for me, the appeal has vanished. What a wake up call.
It is not in all cases that I feel this way, but I clearly see who exactly I matter to in this world. I have awakened to the fact that I am not as important to many as I felt I was. Not hard to see when there is never time for returned phone calls, visits or just a quick check in to say Hi. I actually have one "friend" who has not dialed my number in almost a year. Yep, a wake up from the reality that I clearly do not matter that much to some. Relatives...well, we will just leave that alone. It is hard to think about this when it goes against my nature to ignore and just say "Oh well" It is not easy when your feelings get hurt or you feel unimportant. But then again, nothing that matters is really ever easy.
Now, once awake.....what to do now, or what to feel????? Opps....that was a quick 5 minutes....now to hit publish.
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